made up excuses to get out of 3 social occasions this year to do with school friends lol
Right, listen up, you seriously need a goddamn reality check girl. And I hope this helps, and I’m sorry if this is harsh/cruel/upsets you but in all honesty I have no idea how to say this nicely.
I followed you for a while, and I’d like to point out that I know you have depression - I know that skews your judgement, I know it makes you pity yourself, blame yourself etc…and it sucks. BUT, not everything can be blamed on that.
You need some common sense girl.
You’re always complaining about stuff, but you know what? You bring *some* of it on YOURSELF. A page ago you were complaining about how all your friends left you to become “better friends” with other people. Do you know why? Because you don’t seem to treat them as your friends. You make up excuses so you don’t have to do stuff with them, you bitch on here about them, and then you have the audacity to complain about them not spending time with you/ignoring you.
If you want to be friends with someone YOU have to treat them properly.
And don’t be a hypocrite. I remember reading something about a girl crying about her English coursework, and you called her “pathetic”. Listen up, crying about your English coursework is not “pathetic”, it’s actually pretty fucking stressful, and I’m sure you know the effects stress can have. That English coursework could change her grade - it could make the difference between her getting into the university she wants and missing her offer. Don’t you fucking DARE call someone pathetic for being worried about something that can affect their future.
If you want people to be understanding and sympathetic of you, you should do the same for other people.
Then you actually posted about your own worries about your psychology revision! I was so shocked you actually have to cheek to pretend hers wasn’t a valid thing to get upset about when you were crying over your revision - was it even a real exam, or just a mock? Her feelings are just as valid as yours (and actually, she might have had more reason to be upset if yours was a mock, hers was real coursework)
I know how hard it must be with depression, but please, please stop pitying yourself so much, you’re victimising yourself. It’s pretty hard to care about a person when they drive away help and pity themselves and make everything 10x worse. I’m sorry, but to get what you want you need to change yourself, rather than expecting so much from other people. The world does not revolve around you, as I’m sure you’re aware.
And stop being unreasonable about your boyfriend - if he’s at a top university, he obviously can’t be there for you every time you want him to be, you were complaining about how he did work instead of talking to you, but wake up, he’s at university, he needs to. From what you’ve posted on here, you seem far too demanding. Perhaps if you let go of some of your expectations you’d be much happier? Easier said than done, of course.
You are the one driving people away - don’t make them seem like the bad guys ALL the time. I have no doubt some if it’s them, but some of it is you too. You want people to care, you want people to make the effort…you need to do the same yourself. Make an effort to go to your friends social events, engage in conversation…when they try to help you, don’t drive them away. APPRECIATE what they’d done for you. Appreciate your invitations to these events.
You’re the one who can change that. You CAN help yourself!
Stop being a hypocrite.
Start being more sympathetic and understanding towards others.
Stop being self-centred and selfish. Appreciate.
Try to stop being so self-pitying.
I want you to get better, honestly, and I wish there was a nicer way to say all this, but stop acting as if the world revolves around you. People cared about you, but you rejected them. Don’t be surprised when they stop, look at how you act. It’s hard to be nice to you and care about you when you do shitty stuff and say it about others.
You can change this shit, do it.